I woke up late. I did pack my car up. I'll probably be here at work for another 20 minutes, but I the mailing list won't be finished (guess who probably won't get sleep again tonight! Woot!), and Glennis sent me a text this morning saying she was going upstate to help Kaitlyn with a project this morning. This was fine, but then they got a flat tire coming back, so she won't make it back in time to look at the letters and I definitely won't get paid today.
Something about not actually being fully paid for the 4th week or so in a row really starts making you wonder what kind of security you really have. Or it could just be that some things really feel better when they're on schedule. When you know how much money you should be seeing and you end up with half of that...it's a little disheartening. Makes it hard to budget correctly or get bills paid on time.
*sigh* It will be fine.
Of course, I also, so briefly, thought maybe I'd finally figured out why a guy I know doesn't speak much to me. I thought maybe he'd never received any of the letters I've sent over the past 4 years, but had seen notes show up for most of our other mutual acquaintances. I thought maybe all this quiet was just because he thought I'd been ignoring him, and I could fix it. Nope, he got my letters...he just is that quiet. I over-think everything.
Somehow I feel like a balloon that's been leaking helium all day. I was floating so cheerfully this morning. Heading up, and now I'm slowly drifting down. Maybe it's a caffeine crash. I got plenty of sleep.
Instead of focusing on all the negative, let's focus on something good to wrap up with tale of whine and woe.
Favorite things of this very moment (4:48 PM EST):
- A quiet place to whine
- That I can text and use the interwebz at work
- Getting as much of the mailing list done as I did
- Knowing I should get some time in the sunshine over the weekend
- Knowing I should get to see Cheat & fam this weekend
- "Easy A" & "The Rocker" both being in my suitcase
- Chocolate Zico for the road
- Margie from the post office always being willing to take the time to answer my questions
- Small miracles
- White lace shoes
- Being almost done with the work day
- That it's Friday