|Picture by Jon H. Cheatwood |
at the Jacob & Amber Ballard wedding reception
on June 9, 2012
A week ago today I was trying to make sure a group of boys was recovering from a party, locating a dress for a rehearsal for an incredible wedding (and succeeding for the first time ever to locate a dress I loved this much so quickly), falling a little bit in love with someone while cheerfully realizing all my feelings for someone else had genuinely been erased by his stupidity and poor decision making skills, indulging my femininity, trying to make sure everything that needed to be down was done, trying to figure out what I needed to say in my toast, doing laundry, and thanking God for Jordan Durham every chance I got. It was a crazy day, but I loved it.
Every minute of that week made me feel alive and necessary. I was being asked to run errands, for my opinion, to help with things, to organize, to fix situations, to visit people, and I was highly in demand and desired. I want every day for that to be the case. Sure that life is a little crazy, but in Ohio I knew I had purpose.
For the past few months, well, for the past year or so really, I have been trying to figure out what I should be working towards in my life with little real break in the case. When I was traveling in April, it was suggested by a variety of people that I move to South Carolina, Ohio, and back to Atlanta. I have been thinking about that ever since. At this point, I think I have figured out where I will be heading next, and I am beginning the process of making it happen.
My goal is to be moving in September. I have no idea how to make that happen quite yet, but I do know that I will be attempting to save money this summer and looking for work in my new location. I will also need to start truly downsizing. I do not need to move so much junk. I don't need to own so much junk. Hopefully I will be able to donate many things to people who will love them more than I will, and it will be glorious.
Be praying on all fronts I guess. I am thrilled to be rid of one ridiculous and destructive relationship, and I am hoping to eventually jump into a relationship with a real man. This year, my twenty-sixth year, is already causing all kinds of havoc and change, and as messy as it already is and as scary as a move will be, it is time. I am going to step out in faith and see where God lets me land.
One last thing, I have just this afternoon finished a new mix for my amazing, hilarious Jordan (mail is heading your way soon, my friend). I hope he enjoys it, and I hope you will too.
I Can Haz Wizard?:
1. Daylight - Matt & Kim
2. Anna Molly - Incubus
3. Live My Life - Far East Movement feat. Justin Beiber
4. She Can Get It - Kevin Rudolf
5. And I - Box Car Racer
6. She Talks to Angels - The Black Crows
7. Down - Blink-182
8. We Use to Wait - Arcade Fire
9. Near Enough - Metasomatic
10. Good Arms vs. Bad Arms - Frightened Rabbit
11. Bitter - Teddy Geiger
12. Kiss on Me - Tyler Hilton
13. Edge of Desire - John Mayer
14. 2:00 Your Time - Ace Troubleshooter
15. I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz
16. Heart of Me - Green River Ordinance
17. Secrets - OneRepublic
18. Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
19. Tomorrow Will Be Kinder - The Secret Sisters
20. Wish You Were Here - Incubus