David Crowder*Band totally speaks my heart.
Today I am grateful for love like a hurricane that bends but doesn't break me but instead points out to me that I am loved by the Creator of the Universe. I need His love so desperately today.
There is a great Matthew Mayfield song called "Fire Escape" which I believe I have mentioned in other posts, and the song ends with him saying, "All the words that I wanted to sing got replaced with a wedding ring." I have had that song playing in the back of my mind for ages and ages now with the hopes that this wouldn't be my song. This song wouldn't be always playing in the back of my mind. Today it finally becomes mine.
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| by Andre Jordan |
"Fire Escape" won't always be my song. One of these days it will fade and I'll be able to have something else echoing with joy through the back of my mind. For tonight though, I will let myself mourn the loss of a best friend who chose a path none of us expected, who chose to cut me out of his life virtually every way he could have, and who is now engaged.
R.S.B, my dear friend, my sunshine and heart, I wish you happiness. I pray that God blesses you, my dear. That He gives you clarity of mind and heart so that you can make good decisions that will bring you love and bring you closer to Him daily. If this woman truly brings you closer to God and brings out the best in you and your heart, than I ask that He would bless your relationship as well. I just want you to be healthy and happy. You are something good. Really, you are. Please never doubt that. I love you.
And now, I think I will crank some better tunes, try to sleep, and keep my phone off for awhile. Things will be better in the morning.