(70) On I Go

My eyes are weary

My heart is worn

but my mother is proud of me

& so my heart is also warm

I am not worried

if this is right

everything points to the good,

but it's still a little sad

Never quite felt 

completely my own

never quite felt

like this was my home

Sorry to leave

those I love

once again

but I have no doubt

I'm headed to

where I always

Should've been

(20) Goodbyes

I've hit the point

of paradox 

The limbo of home

I'm looking forward

to my normal life,

but scared to say 

goodbye

Goodbyes feel so weird

Because when will

I see you again?

How do I know

my plan will work

or that we can stay the same?

It's just a couple of months

all filled with

new plans & change

It's exciting to move forward

but at the same time...

I wish it could

remain the same.