(23) Grief & a Loon

Why can't I just grieve?

like a normal person

I hate feeling

like the illogical

black hole of emotion

My heart turns into

a bad mid afternoon game show

My nails are gone

& my sanity seems to

be following the same path

how are you supposed to do this?

(20) Goodbyes

I've hit the point

of paradox 

The limbo of home

I'm looking forward

to my normal life,

but scared to say 

goodbye

Goodbyes feel so weird

Because when will

I see you again?

How do I know

my plan will work

or that we can stay the same?

It's just a couple of months

all filled with

new plans & change

It's exciting to move forward

but at the same time...

I wish it could

remain the same.